The C word.

My world has stopped 2 times in my entire 23 years of life; The morning I was told my dad died and yesterday when I got news of something I’ve been dealing with the past 8 years. I’ve had irregular menstrual issues since puberty. I’ve seen numerous doctors and specialist over the years. The past 4 years have been the most difficult, it has messed with my life in every aspect possible. I’ll spare the gruesome details and say that during those times and all those doctors no one has known what was happening or really tried to find out because I’m fat. I’m not going to include the whole medical world but for the majority, being fat is the obvious cause for everything under the sun, even the common cold (I’m being sarcastic here), but most doctors in my experience never delve any deeper when they see the number on the BMI scale. It’s very similar to everyday life like that. With all that searching and heartache, I finally found a doctor that was wiling to find out what was going on and not blame everything on my weight if it wasn’t to blame. I’ve seen Dr. Wagner exactly 4 times and she managed to narrow down the cause of everything down to a few possible ones. I’m grateful that we have answers, however I don’t like the results. I have Complex Hyperplasia with Atypia and they cannot rule out underlying endometrial cancer. I may have cancer. The next step to finding out if it is endometrial cancer by having a D&C. This will be sometime in the month of October. I have a long road in front of me, with cancer or not. Either way, with my body producing too much estrogen, I have to do what I can with what I have control over, which is losing a significant amount of weight to eliminate some of the estrogen producing tissue. I’m scared and shocked. I’m trying to not worry about bills or thing like that, but it’s hard. I covet your prayers over this. This is all I know as of right now and just to reiterate, we don’t know if it is cancer or if it’s not, so please don’t jump to conclusions. Thank you for your prayers and thoughts so far, I know they’ve kept me going.

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